Everyone plays a piece and there are melodies . . .

There are times when you might feel aimless
And can’t see the places where you belong
But you will find that there is a purpose
It’s been there within you all along
And when you’re near it you can almost hear it

It’s like a symphony
Just keep listening and pretty soon you’ll start to figure out your part
Everyone plays a piece and there are melodies
In each one of us Oohhh it’s glorious

And you will know how to let it ring out
As you discover who you are
Others around you will start to wake up to the sounds that are
In their hearts

It’s so amazing
What we’re all creating

It’s like a symphony
Just keep listening and pretty soon you’ll start to figure out your part
Everyone plays a piece and there are melodies
In each one of us Oohhh it’s glorious

What’s next?

Prior to my study I haven’t really taught to have this idea. The idea of doing more in the research field. I feel like I was driven into such a beautiful coincidence through this incredibly amazing experience. Being introduced to the master research project over the last two years has made me realize how wonderful and enjoyable it is to do applied mathematics research.

I have to admit that it was not easy. Having such a limited experience in conducting research has pushed me to work hard. I was doubting my self at the start of this project and was questioning my readiness and capability to do this research. “Am I ready? Am I capable?”  These two questions were always haunting me.  But thank goodness, everything is beautiful at its time, isn’t? All the hard work that you have put is just worth it. I can’t believe my self that I already finished my thesis and just have one last exam to be sit in before the graduation.

 

 

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It’s been a wonderful journey and I can’t wait to do more in this particular field.  I would love to dig even deeper in research and therefore, I am willing to continue to the next level. I am not really sure yet if there is chance to pursue this dream but I believe that there always be a ‘door’ that is waiting for me out there.

 

November, 1st 2015

From Ground Level of Bailleu Library

 

 

You Stole It Since Day One

It has been good and always be like that.
Watching this feeling grows and gets stronger and stronger is just amazingly good.
It sometimes drives him crazy.
Don’t be surprise, you stole his heart since day one.
Yap, since that day.
It still clears in his mind, how you pronounced his name correctly.
Previously, no one can (really) pronounce his name as correct as what you did on that day.
It was such a warm welcome chat and somehow he wants to be back to that day.
It has been 3 months and he enjoys every single time with you.
Like every single second.
All he wants is just stay close to you.
He always wonders, “Are you doing alright?”.
“Are you doing okay out there?”.
He is now dragged into such a beautiful feeling which never ever happens in his entire life before.
You might notice it, right? How he feels about you?
He also (somehow) knows how you feel about him.
But he worries, he scares, if you don’t have same amount as what he has about you.
He is not really good in expressing what he feels and thoughts.
He is hopping, just hope,
and believes, time will help him out.

From the corner of South Lawn, Melbourne Uni
October 19, 2015 

Time

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 Have you ever wondered about how powerful time is? Well, I have been thinking of this over the last four weeks and I somehow end up with this notion: “Time is the only constraint that can measure how capable you are (in whatever thing you are doing). It either can break you or make you. The only thing that you can do to deal with it is just by managing it well.

Up to this point, I feel like the measurement of how capable someone deals with their ‘job’, is basically depends on how capable someone of managing their time. Suppose, you are given a set of jobs in which you need to run all of those jobs only in one day (24 hours). Let assume that all jobs have similar level of difficulty. So technically, we ignore the variability of how difficult the jobs are. If you are assigned to finish all those jobs only in 24 hours, how could you go with it? If there are 6 consecutive jobs that are needed to be done by the end of the day, how could you handle this assignment?

One can simply say that, well, if there are 6 jobs to be finished then one plausible way to accomplish this mission is by allocating equal amount of time to each job. Meaning, every single job should be done in 4 hours. This is pretty cool strategy. However, the only problem is that, in real life things are (sometimes) out of control, especially when we feel anxious about the time limit that we have to complete all the given jobs. Well, this is only my theory. Maybe some of us are not feeling that way though. Some people might be productive when they are getting close to the deadlines. Some might feel the other way around.

From my point of view, there is nothing wrong about it. There is no such a ‘correct’ way of saying that being a ‘deadliner’ is a wrong approach. I mean, there is no guarantee to say that being as a ‘planner’ always works as well. Everyone has their own approach to deal with ‘time constraint’. What I am going to say here is that if you can really productive as you are getting closer to the due date, it is gonna be so sweet. Also, if you can really maximise your time by projecting your plan in advance to accomplish the mission, it is also gonna be awesome. So, up to this point, it all comes back to individual ability to cope with the time pressure no matter what approach you use. How can you control your anxiety and be focus to finish the assigned jobs?

Time management seems to be crucial here, regardless which approach you choose.  Both deadliners and planners , need to manage their time to be able to complete the given jobs. Nothing you can do about this if you do not have a good time management skill. Perhaps, other factors like individual knowledge and speed might be matter in determining how someone succeed in handling those jobs. If we just assume that everyone has the same speed and knowledge to process all the jobs, then the only thing that matters is the skill  to manage their time.

In my dictionary, having a good time management is a key element that needs to be taken into account. As what I said previously that time is the only constraint that might break you or make you. If we could somehow know how to ‘manipulate’ it. we could potentially conquer it and be the winner.  Having said that, it could break you, if you don’t know to deal with it. So let put it this way. To be able to tackle all the given jobs, we need to compete with ‘time’. Therefore, the only way to go about it is by taking control over it. Hence, you need to manage it and be the WINNER .

Melbourne, October 16 2015.

Second Winter: Last Winter?

Semester 3 baru saja berlalu. Tepatnya dua hari yang lalu. Huft, minggu-minggu perjuangan itu baru saja saya lewati. Banyak cerita yang sudah saya ukir. Yang paling berkesan adalah, (seperti biasa) menghabiskan hampir seantero waktu saya untuk bergulat dengan seabrek materi coursework; buku, lecture notes, prac class sheets, dan sejumlah tugas dengan deadline yang boleh dibilang ‘gila’. Belum lagi research project  yang makin ke sini makin ‘seru’. Ya, saya menyebutnya dengan ‘minggu-minggu berdarah’. Tapi, syukur Puji Tuhan, saya baru saja menyelesaikan satu semester lagi, sebelum akhirnya tiba di semester akhir saya, semester depan.

Harus saya akui, belakangan saya tidak punya banyak waktu untuk bercuap-cuap di sini. Waktu saya betul-betul terkuras habis dengan rutinitas belajar yang sangat sibuk. Tapi, saya sangat bersyukur karena punya kesempatan menulis hari ini setelah ‘ngos-ngosan‘ belajar.

Banyak hal luar biasa terjadi semester ini, dan tidak ada yang lebih yang dapat saya lakukan selain ucapan syukur buat semua berkat yang sudah terjadi sepanjang 4 bulan belakangan. Minggu ini, perkuliahan selesai dan masa-masa exam pun sudah di depan mata. Untungnya, masih ada 1 minggu “free“. Di sini mereka menyebutnya “SWOT Vacation“. Di minggu ini, resmi perkuliahan selesai dan tugas-tugas pun sudah harus selesai sebelum swot vac week ini dimulai. Selain itu, dengan berakhirnya perkuliahan semester 3 ini, musim gugur pun berakhir. Itu artinya, “winter“, alias musim dingin pun mengambil posisi si “fall” yang sudah menemani saya dan warga Aussie lainnya selama 3 bulan belakangan.

Jujur, winter bukan musim favorit saya. Datang dari negara beriklim tropis mungkin alasan utama mengapa saya bukan fans fanatik musim yang satu ini. Mungkin juga, karena harus bergumul lagi dengan cuaca yang super dingin yang akan berdampak pada mood  belajar, tentu saja. Hufttt…. Tapi, ada suatu keceriaan sesaat tahu bahwa secara ofisial Aussie memasuki musin dingin sejak 1 Juni kemarin. Saya kurang begitu paham kenapa saya begitu excited dengan musim dingin kali ini. Yang jelas, saya ingin melalui musim dingin kali ini dengan sebuah cerita menarik dan menantang lainnya. Mungkin saja, ini winter terakhir saya di negeri Kangguru. Atau mungkin juga ini winter kedua dan masih akan ada winter-winter lain menunggu saya di depan sana. Well, “who knows“.

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Courtesy Pribadi

Melbourne, 2 Juni 2015,

From my study cave: Richard Berry Building, The University of Melbourne

A Complexity …

His career has been an extraordinary one. He is a man of good birth and excellent education, endowed by nature with a phenomenal mathematical faculty. At the age of twenty-one he wrote a treatise upon the binomial theorem, which has had a European vogue. On the strength of it he won the mathematical chair at one of our smaller universities, and had, to all appearances, a most brilliant career before him. But the man had hereditary tendencies of the most diabolical kind. A criminal strain ran in his blood, which, instead of being modified, was increased and rendered infinitely more dangerous by his extraordinary mental powers.

— Sherlock Holmes, The Final Problem

Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

*) Quoted from Bender and Orszag (1978), Chapter Nine, Boundary-Layer Theory

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Why I chose the University of Melbourne

Unimelb Adventures

Before I begin, I just wanted to say that it’s such an honour to be a part of Unimelb Adventures and I’m so excited to share my experiences with you all.

My name is Seluz, and I’m an international student currently doing my Masters in Applied Mathematics.

Moving to Australia from Indonesia was a big move for me, and in this blog post, I will highlight several reasons that motivated me to study at the University of Melbourne.

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Ada Aksi Ada Reaksi

Jadi ceritanya seminggu belakangan saya merasa sangat terbakar dengan aliran semangat yang tak biasa saya alami. Aliran itu begitu positif dan ‘captivating’. Candu yang lebih dari ketagihan saya akan nikmatnya kopi pagi. Yang jelas, aliran itu berhasil membuat saya tak jemu-jemu bertengger di pojok favorit saya di Richard Berry, menggauli seabrek ‘lecture notes’ dan ‘prac class sheets’.

Ritme riset pun mendapat imbasnya. Sudah hampir dua bulan saya resmi menggodok pemodelan dan ‘bermain-main’ dengan simulasi itu tapi tak pernah jenuh itu menyapa. Apalagi ‘singgah’. Saya merasa sangat luar biasa. Menghabiskan waktu berjam-jam di depan komputer tak menjadi masalah bagi saya. Apalagi ditambah bumbu penyedap lain seperti kata-kata pengakuan dan ‘good impression’ dari supervisor. Itu seperti bonus buat semua waktu dan energi yang sudah ‘digadai’ kurang lebih 2 bulan belakangan di pojok itu, meja 43.

Sampai saat ini pun, kata-kata itu masih saja tergiang-giang jelas di telinga. Senang bukan main. Betapa tidak, mendengar semua itu membuat api semangat itu semakin bergelora bak mendapat siraman bensin. Seperti berhasil menunjukkan bahwa, ya saya bisa dan komit. Tak ada yang lebih luar biasa ketika hasil kerja keras mu dihargai. Sampai point ini saya paham betul bagaimana sedikit ‘pujian’ bisa membuat seseorang merasa dihargai dan puas akan usaha dan kerja keras yang sudah dia lakukan.

Akan tetapi, di lain sisi, ada sedikit gejolak yang tengah berkecamuk. Ternyata ada baik dan kurang baiknya juga ketika kita berhasil menunjukan progress yang ‘accelerated’ di mata supervisor kita. Ya setidaknya itu yang saya rasakan sekarang. Baiknya itu adalah ya tentu saja dengan kemajuan yang tak disangka-sangka bakalan kamu sajikan ke meja supervisor, kamu berhasil membuktikan bahwa kamu serius dan tidak main-main. Tapi, yang kurang baiknya adalah ketika mereka melihat cepatnya kamu berproses dan bisa ada di level yang ‘sekarang’, mereka malah semakin ambisius dan menaikan ekspektasi mereka. Well, sebenarnya itu justru jadi berita gembira. Tapi entah kenapa saya merasa sedikit terbeban dengan fakta ini. Artinya, dengan tingginya level ekspektasi supervisor ini, ritme kerja ke depan ini akan lebih ‘gila’ lagi. *pheww….

“Ohhh sanggup tidak ya?” Itu pertanyaan yang pertama kali saya pikirkan. Pesimis kembali menyerang. Tapi beruntung, aliran semangat yang sedang mendiami saya itu kembali berhasil menarik saya keluar seketika dari kemelut ‘pesimistis’ sesaat itu. Saya dibuat teringat dengan hukum fisika yang pernah saya pelajari, bahwa setiap ada aksi tentu akan ada reaksi. Itu hukum alam. Pada akhirnya setiap aksi yang kita alami akan kita salurkan kembali dalam bentuk reaksi dengan ‘kekuatan’ yang sama besarnya dengan aksi tersebut.

Jadi saya percaya bahwa dengan aksi ‘ambisius’ yang saya terima dari supervisor ini akan ada aliran reaksi ‘ambisius’ yang bakalan saya kembalikan dengan power yang sama. Saya mungkin kedengaran sangat percaya diri, tapi kalo boleh jujur sebenarnya ‘grogi’ luar biasa soal ini. Soal: apa bisa setiap tantangan dan ‘PR’ yang akan keluar tiap minggu nanti saya ‘taklukan’?

“You’ll never know till you’ve tried, won’t you?”

Semoga, mari mencoba!!!

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Cheers,

Seluz Fahik

Melbourne, April 4, 2015

A Lesson Learnt

People come and go in your life. Many of them stay with you and provide you with sweet memories to remind you of them. However, some of them might just drop by and leave you even without saying goodbye. It seems a bit unfair when you got treated that way. You keep blaming your selves what have you done wrong.

It is then deteriorating when they won’t say anything to you the reasons they did so. You keep questioning your self about the mess remained whilst thinking how could be all these happen to you? You then wanna make sure that the paths that you been through with those people were okay or not. You reproduced the do’s and dont’s but still, you end up with a bunch of questions.

You won’t speculate because you think you know those people like the back of your hand. But it seems that you are wrong. Wouldn’t be it different when you really know who they really are? Their personalities, behaviours and attitudes. You DON’T, do you? If only you knew then you will definitely decided not to be that close to those people. It is always like this. Regret and disappointment always come at the end. Never showing them selves up from the beginning.

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Fortunately, at the end you will realise that this is just the way how life runs. Ups and downs are really normal. If there no ups and downs then, you are dead, aren’t you?

All you know now is experience is the best teacher. You won’t know things until you go through it. It teaches you to always have ‘questions’ and ‘be prepared’ to the worst possibilities ahead. And the most important lesson is that, trust’ is the most invaluable thing that you won’t sacrifice AGAIN. Finally, you should be thankful for putting you to experience all these stories. It’s a lesson learnt.

Cheers,

Seluz

Melbourne, 28 March 2015

Hadiah Ultah Paling Berkesan Tahun Ini

Ini kali kedua saya merayakan ulang tahun di negeri orang. Tidak terlalu banyak yang berbeda dengan ultah sebelum-sebelumnya. Ucapan dan doa dari orang-orang terdekat selalu jadi hadiah spesial setiap kali merayakan hari lahir ini. Kado-kado kecil juga turut meramaikan hari spesial buat saya ini. Mungkin yang sedikit berbeda hanyalah tempat di mana saya berada sekarang. ‘Luar Negeri’.

Bersyukur itu pasti. Mendapat tambahan usia itu sebuah anugerah yang patut disyukuri, menurut saya. Selain bertambah dewasa, anugerah  tambahan usia ini juga saya artikan sebagai satu tambahan point untuk semakin matang dalam iman, cita-cita, cinta, harapan, dan tingkah laku. Sudah dua kali berturut-turut saya selalu mendapat hadiah ulang tahun yang sangat berkesan. Hadiah yang membuat saya selalu ingat momen pertambahan usia saya dan selalu ingin berada di tanggal 22 Maret. Tak rela untuk beralih ke hari berikutnya.

Momen itu sepertinya kembali terulang lagi kali ini. Ulang tahun 2015 kali ini akan saya kenang (mungkin) seumur hidup saya. Betapa tidak, di hari spesial itu (22 Maret 2015) saya berkesempatan mengikuti seleksi pertandingan badminton kategori ganda putra, yang diadakan oleh Perhimpunan Pelajar Indonesia di Australia (PPIA) State Victoria dan tebak apa, saya dan rekan ganda saya keluar sebagai pemenang yang selanjutnya akan mewakili PPIA State Victoria di ajang tahunan, Olymppia 2015 yang akan digelar di Wollonggong, Sydney 11 – 12 April mendatang. Tentu saja ini akan jadi goresan cerita dan pengalaman yang tidak akan saya lupakan. Ini bukan soal hadiah jika jadi pemenang nanti, tapi lebih ke ‘kesempatan emas’ yang menurut saya tak pernah terulang untuk kedua kali.

Ya, saya akan berkesempatan bertemu dengan setiap ‘jagoan’ PPIA utusan dari tiap negara bagian di Australia. Hufftt, tak sabar lagi buat merasakan pengalaman itu. Saya tidak memasang target apa-apa buat pertandingan nanti. Latihan intensive ala atlet juga tidak akan saya lakukan. Waktu kuliah yang semakin padat dengan mulai berdatangannya assignment, ditambah komitmen riset yang sedang berjalan, tentu membuat saya untuk lebih memprioritaskan kegiatan kuliah dan penelitian. Tapi, bukan berarti hanya mau ikut rame di ajang itu nanti. Kalau juara ya bersyukur, kalau tidak pun tetap bersyukur. Punya kesempatan buat jadi wakil pelajar di State Victoria di partai ganda putra Badminton nanti akan jadi satu cerita menarik lain belajar di negeri kangguru ini. Mudah-mudahan bisa membuat nama harum PPIA State Victoria nanti.

Finger-crossed.

Seluz

Melbourne, 26 March 2015